Hey guys. Sorry I havent posted in a while, things have been really hectic. As for my ABC its been hard and lately hasnt been goin well. Hopefully as of tomorrow i can get back on track. I dont know what happened i was doing so good then me and jay had a huge argument and me and jerel walked and ate....i gotta stop eating because of stress. all it does is make me feel even worse inside. People at my job have been bitching at me about eating. It sucks to have so many people be like you need to eat you need to eat. No i don't! That the problem now. I need to stop eating. So I've resorted to taking a san dwhich to work, eating afew bites then throwing it away when they arent looking. It like hiding from your parents or something. Is anybody else goin through this? What do you do to relieve stress? Anyway see you guys tomorrow and hopefully ill have some good news to report.

Nia

Current Mood: cranky

As my day is winding down and im thinking over my day, i decide to step on the scale and guess what? Im down 3 pounds. 3 whole pounds! may not seem like alot to some but to a fat lil porker like myself this is awesome! 

Current Location: My computer
Current Mood: cheerful

 Yesterday was a horrible day in my weight loss journey. Im sick and all i did was eat. I gained 0.6 pounds yesterday! This sucks ass! I so angry with myself. I dont know what to do.  I'm having a hard time accepting Jerel and I just want him to be out of my life for good. (Jerel is my ex boyfriend with whom i have so many ties attached to) During the course of our 4 year relationship he made sure he told me everyday how fat i had gotten. He completely destroyed my self esteem. Theres a new guy in my life and he has no idea the struggle that i go through on a day to day basis. I afraid to let him in my world, mainly because i'm not sure if i can and if im ready. Wanna know something that blows my fucking mind, HIs name is also Jerel!!!! What are the chances.... So for the sake of my blog we will call my ex Jay and the new guy Jerel. 




Nia

Current Location: My bed
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Rihanna - Good girl gone bad